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Thursday, March 3, 2011

Where Is The Love?

“But if you only have love for your own race,

Then you only leave space to discriminate,

And to discriminate only generates hate,

And when you hate then you’re bound to get irate”

The Black Eyed Peas – Where Is The Love?

A simple verse, just 4 lines long conveys a message so strong and profound. The message itself is straight to the point. Racial relations cannot be built if we continue to have hatred, misgivings and suspicions about other races. Where has all the love gone? Looking back decades ago, society was much simpler. People got along well with each other, regardless of colour or creed. When they used to call themselves a community, they meant it in every sense of the word. Now, look how the mighty have fallen. We, the citizens of this beautiful country, look at each other daily, through racially coloured glasses, peering through the mist of misunderstandings created by opportunists, trying so hard to see the faults in others. How did we come to this? Why? I’ll leave those questions for you to ponder. To answer those questions is not my goal in writing this article. In this article, I hope to create a sense of awareness of the need for us to change our ways and emerge from the fog hand in hand to create a better future for ourselves and those that will inherit the future of this nation from us.

Nothing good can ever come out of being a racist. All it does is sow the seeds of mistrust that will eventually grow into a tree of discrimination and misgivings from which we eat the fruit of hate. And the worst part is our children will continue to eat the same fruit as we impart our practises to them. Have you ever witnessed the innocence of a child? How they seem to get along with each other, regardless of the other’s skin colour. At such a young age, there is a gut instinct in each of us to acknowledge another person as a human being and stop there. Nothing else matters. We are one and the same at that age. We lose that innocence as we grow older. I bet you still remember when you were in kindergarten or even in Standard 1 you had so many friends, and you didn’t give a damn about their race. However, as we grew older and were doused with the colours of racist beliefs and practices we instinctively shunned those ‘other’ friends away. We need to get that back. The ability to look at someone as just a human being, nothing more, nothing less.

But, the question is how are we going to do that? To answer that, we must first answer the question, “Why do ornithological specimens of identical plumage congregate in their own approximation?” The reason is simple, they see similarities with each other and those similarities are comforting and we as well seek solace and acceptance in people of our own race. This is what I’d like to call our comfort zone. Now, to answer the first question, in order for us to achieve the ideal of racial harmony, we must step out of our comfort zone. Now, this may a bit difficult and life-changing for some of us. However, we must realise that most great things were done by people who stepped out of their comfort zone. Would Christopher Columbus have discovered America if he did not want to step out of his zone? Would Neil Armstrong have ever set foot on the moon if he did not want to leave Earth? Would our country have gained independence had our forefathers felt comfortable being ruled by the British colonialists? I’m sure you can answer those questions without my help.

This brings us to the next pressing matter, how are we going to step outside our comfort zone? The only way is to do things you’ve never done before. It’ll be difficult, but you must adopt the mindset that it is something that you must do, something that must become second nature, like eating or sleeping. You gotta do what you gotta do."You have to be the change you wish to see in the world” – Mahatma Gandhi. Remove those racial coloured glasses, blow away the fog, and take a good look at the people around you. Realise that they are human beings too. Make an extra effort to include them in your outings, discussions, and events. Don’t ostracize them. Be nice. Give people a chance. Stop being so judgemental. It’s not your place to judge anyway. Look deep inside and you will realise that they aren’t what you believe them to be. And maybe, they’ll look at you in a different light too. And that’s all it takes. A simple gesture of friendship can last a lifetime.

What does it mean when we say racial harmony? What are the elements that must be present? Well, firstly, it would mean that we do not look at people based on their race anymore, but just the fact that they are Malaysians, just like us. And we’ll be willing to help, to lend a helping hand to those in need without the thought of race ever crossing our minds. We’d interact with one another freely, without bound by the fear that we might say something offensive, for we all would understand each other well. We will be able to once again claim that we truly are a community that cares for its members. Just like in the old days, where racial relations were simple. We’d stand by each other through thick and thin. After all, Martin Luther King Jr. once said, “In the end, we will remember not the words of our enemies, but the silence of our friends,” Let this blasphemy never happen to our society again. Now I know that this may be a tall order, but where there is a will, there is a way!

Now, to address the need for there to be racial harmony. It’s simple. Does anyone actually want to live in disharmony? I definitely think not. It’s just that when you know everything is going well there is a feeling of satisfaction within that blossoms out. It’s a beautiful feeling. Our country needs it. In fact, our country deserves it. Malaysia is a blessed land. Deep down we all love it here. We love the food, the atmosphere and everything under the sun here. Yet, we still live today with a nagging feeling at the back of our minds, that our racial relations are less than acceptable. We love our country. Isn’t this the least we can do for our nation? Please understand that when I say country, I mean the land, the nation, not the institutions that make it up. I view our country as an entity by itself and we definitely have to appreciate all that Mother Malaysia has done for us. It’s our time to do something nice in return.

I would also like to touch on the subject of being a Malaysian race. Now, when I say this, I do not mean for you to forsake your own race. That would be preposterous. Each race in Malaysia is unique and special. Each race makes up a part of our own cultural rainbow. If a rainbow were to lose any one colour, it just won’t be as beautiful. The thing is, as a Malaysian community, we are unique in every sense of the word. You can travel to any part of the world and you cannot find a community and a society as unique as ours. With all our quirks, such as the ever ubiquitous “-lah” that we add to all our sentences, is all a part of our Malaysian lifestyle. And we should be proud of it, just as we are proud of our own race and heritage! As each race is unique, and we as a society as the fitting description of the word unique, I truly believe that we can call ourselves a Malaysian race, or ‘Bangsa Malaysia’! Carry the name with pride, my friends!

Remember, we are all in this together. Our actions in the present will determine the future of the nation and the well being of the generations to come. It’s time to take a stand, have hope and do the right thing! “Hope begins in the dark, the stubborn hope that if you just show up and try to do the right thing, the dawn will come. You wait and watch and work: you don't give up,” – Anne Lamott. Hope and perseverance will get us to fulfil this dream. We owe our nation and the future generation this. And in the future, when they look back at our generation, they can say with pride that we did something great for our nation. We managed to give back the meaning of what it means to be a Malaysian. That, dear readers, would be something to be proud about.

In conclusion, I leave you with this beautiful quote by Martin Luther King Jr. “Let us all hope that the dark clouds of racial prejudice will soon pass away, and that in some not too distant tomorrow the radiant stars of love and brotherhood will shine over our great nation with all their scintillating beauty.”


Cheers =)

SoulSnatcher


Thursday, December 2, 2010

Changed, I Have

I can't believe its been more than a year since my last post. Wow. A whole frikkin year. Thats 365 days. Gone. Just like that. Damn.

I guess time just flies, leaving you behind. One semester of the 2nd yr is over. In the blink of an eye. Its been one and a half years in UM. Things have changed. I don't know for better or worse, though.

Change. A terrifying word, if you ask me. So much has changed since I stepped into the university. Life's just not the same anymore. I'm not the same anymore. I still don't know if that's a good thing. Looking back, I miss my previous self. I think I do. Or have I changed so much, that I don't even give a damn? I don't know.

I know what I used to be. I don't intend on describing. If you have known me before I got into UM, you'll know the person I was, or rather, your perception of the person I was. The fact is, I should go back to what I was. But, for some reason, I don't.

I just don't. I'm reluctant. I can go back if I really wanted to. But the thing is I don't. In a twisted sense, I like the new me, even though I know the previous me was better. Lolx.

Ah, what the hell. I don't know if I'm going back to that person that I once was. Or am. Or will be again. Crap. Fact is, I know I need to go back. Maybe not a 100%. Maybe not even 50%. Maybe just 20%? This is so confusing. Or maybe its mutually exclusive, where I can only have one, and not the other at the same time.

Who knows? The person that I am now. Who cares? The person I once was.
What's the problem? Which side to take.

I used to have enthusiasm for whatever I did. Now, its just a hollow shell, echoing in the past. I just can't care less. Not inspired to do anything. Just taking each day as it goes by. That's all. Lol. Pathetic. I know. Haha. But the current me just doesn't care. I don't care.

No matter how much I try to go back, I'm just apathetic about the whole situation. I really want to, but more of me doesn't want to. Now, I have less worries, less stress, less problems(I think). Why would I want to put myself through all that all over again. I don't see a good reason. I just don't.

I realised the past means nothing, in the end. In the end, nothing matters. Nobody gives a damn when it all goes down. Nobody. So, why bother? Why bother indeed. I don't see a reason to bother anyway. All you get in the end, is nothing but bitter disappointment.

Thing is, I don't know if I'm living a lie. Maybe this is all a facade. Maybe it is all just some crap way of looking at things. Who knows what masks I put on everyday? Who knows what I really feel, and what I really want to be? Yeah, this is some sick twilight zone I'm purportedly stuck in. Stuck. Maybe the back door is open. Lol. That door might lead to a lot of worse things.

Lost in my mind, in my thoughts. Lost between two worlds. Two worlds that have no place for the other. Apathy rules one. The other is ruled ny a feeling that I have yet to genuinely feel in this past one and a half years. It's been so long, I can't even remember what it feels like.

Ah, whatever. Fact is, I'm stuck. With superglue. If I ever get out, there'll be some nasty skin tears. Or I can just sit here. In the glue. Now that doesn't sound too bad. Not at all. I mean, it would be a hassle to get out. And its just too troublesome.

Oh well, who cares anyway? Not me.

Sunday, November 29, 2009

It Has Been A While

Its been nearly 4 months...... since.......

  • I had time to post in my blog
  • I had time to read a book other than my subjects
  • I had time to relaxxxx
  • I had time to sleep and not give a care about tomorrow...
  • I had time not to give a damn about what assessments are around the corner....
  • I had time to just stare blankly at the ceiling....
  • I had time to just to do nothing.....
  • Lolx..... XD......
This is a random post... Felt like i had to blog.. LOLX!!!
Thats all folks!

~JoNamasoo~
29/11/2009 1.11pm

Friday, July 31, 2009

A Little Too Soon....

I dedicate this poem to the memory of my dear friend Tevindiran. May his soul rest in peace.

I watched you standing there,
On that morning filled with cool air,
With that cheeky grin and messy hair,
And the look on your face that said, 'I don't care'.

I can't believe that it was so fast,
I didn't know that a shroud was cast,
And that you being here wasn't meant to last,
Our time spent, like a blur, it's now in the past.

It was the night before Canteen Day 08,
That you helped me til it was very late,
And what a day it was, an unforgettable date,
The Fourth of April 2008.

You are always jovial and carefree,
To have that kind of attitude, it isn't easy,
You have what it takes to laugh in the face of adversity,
To put an ease on the stresses we face daily.

Ingenious you are, with crazy ideas,
Some that are plausible, yet some just plain weird,
But that is the person that you are, without any fears,
Maybe its a leaf out of your book that I should hold dear.

When we were down, you cheered us up,
With your jokes and antics, you just wouldn't stop,
Within minutes our worries, we let it all drop,
Our spirits lifted to the top.

The fact that you are not here,
Brings the sadness in my heart near,
But its not the sadness that I fear,
Rather, the lack of your jokes that we all hold dear.

You really are a true friend,
Stick with us through thick and thin,
Yet now there is a void to mend,
A space to be filled, this poem I pen.

My friend, you will be missed dearly,
This sorrow we must get through, hopefully,
For you liked seeing us laugh heartily,
And for that sake, we must hide this sorrow and be merry.

Our hopes and dreams we send,
That this emptiness we feel will somehow mend,
Our memories of the good times will last and have no end,
May peace be with you my dear friend.

Wherever you are dude, know that you will always be in our hearts, just as we know we will be in yours.

~JoNamasoo~
31/7/2009
5.41 p.m.

Sunday, June 14, 2009

Hell's Kitchen

WARNING : THIS POST CONTAINS GORE OF SEVERE PROPORTIONS. DO NOT CONTINUE IF YOU CANNOT TAKE IT !

The great walls of flames crash mercilessly onto the maimed body that hangs limply from the lone mast that juts out of the ocean of flames that rages on, in a constant massive storm, a storm that never ceases to stop, a storm that only increases the intensity and the ferocity of the ocean. It feels like an eternity... It actually is. The condemned man, tied to the plank of wood that can never be burnt is silent. Silent as a graveyard. But, he is not dead. He is not allowed to die. If it were up to him, he would have given his life anytime to stop the endless vicious cycle of suffering and torture.

However, it is not his life to give. Each time the flames torch his body, the flesh is instantly evaporated off his skeleton. The pain is undescribable. in the next instant, the flesh is regenerated, but the pain remains. Then, the accursed body just waits for the next wall of flame to sear the flesh right of the bones. The body dies again.... and again. It will die until the end of time. The silent body screams inside. Its mouth to weak to move. It has been suffering for as long as he can remember. He has no past, no present, no future. Everything is a repetition. His entire life is one big circle of never ending pain, excruciating pain and death. He has died and returned so many times that he doesnt fear death anymore. He fears life for everytime he lives, he will die again.

The body. It was not always like that. However, the past that is too far away to remember cannot be thought about for it brings about pain on another level. Physical suffering is enough isn't it? But it isn't. For the body, he must suffer, he must pay for what he has done. He has to suffer on behalf of everybody, for everything is indirectly connected to him, therefore it is his fault, his dillema and his suffering, his torture. Not suffering would be even worse torture.... the guilt would be unbearable. The guilt of not being able to pay for his crimes would drive him insane. He would not have what it takes to suffer the pain of death every second, for every minute, for every hour, for every day, for every week, for every month, for every year of his life. But he wants to suffer. He is paying for his crimes and is being punished by himself. He deserves worse

A whip appears in the sky , followed by thousands more. The whips crack and lash onto the naked flesh, biting into the dead skin. Blood, flesh, muscles, and sinew drop to the flaming ocean of hellfire. This time, the body gains the strength to howl into the pitch black void that surrounds the ocean. The howls are soon drowned out by the cracking and lashing of the innumerable whips onto every square inch of that condemned body. But he wants it. Every new cut makes him feel satisfied. He doesn't only want more... he NEEDS more.

Swords, daggers, katanas, rapiers surround the nearly lifeless body, They stab the body with such force that the organs are ripped out of the shell that encase them. The blades pierce into the wounds left by the whips that still continue to crack with a ominous rhythm. The blades slice off the flesh, layer by layer, slowly.... very slowly, so that the maximum pain is felt by the dead receptors. The arms, legs are slowly chopped off. The eyeballs gouged out, the tongue severed, the nose cleanly sliced off, the lungs punctured, the heart skewered on a blade, the entrails spew out of the gastrointesinal cavity. But that still demands a lot more... The body demands more.... MORE!!!!

The external torture rages on...... The internal torture is on a much more terrifying level. Blue hot flames sear the inside of the body. Burning through memories and nerves, burning through feelings, ideas, emotions, leaving nothing left of the consciousness but just enough to become alive and dead the same time. The flames burn everything in existence. The inside is a barrren wasteland. Nothing can survive there, but the consciousness if left to rot and die..only to be reborn in that desolate place to suffer again again again before dying to complete the vicious cycle.

The body demands more! It needs to suffer. It wamts to. It HAS to. It will continue to do so till the end of time. It wants to.. it doesnt want to... It has to.... It doesnt have to... it needs to... it doesnt need to... This torture only adds to its list of continuous suffering, It will suffer all it wants. It will and it must and it just adores the suffering, hating it with a contempt that cannot be described in words or expressions or feelings. It has to be experienced. A PERMANENT EXPERIENCE FOR ETERNITY.

Want to experience Hell's Kitchen?!?!?!
Sure Sure!

Oh wait... wer'e already there....

~JoNamasoo~
14/6/2009 2.01 a.m.


Thursday, May 21, 2009

Desicions, Desicions....

Well well well.... time HAS flown by... as usual... >.<....

Haven't blogged in ages... haha....Oh well....what to do.... Facebook... Gaming.... TV..... guess it just took my time all away... lol....

Speaking of time.... It always seems to catch up with you... things that you just want to put away.... things you do not want to think about.... cause at it does is mess your head up soooooo bad.....
I have been putting off the task, the ardurous task that i do not want to do.... the task that ultimately...will decide...what I do in the future.... lol.... THE DESICION!... what will it be?...what course shld i do?.... Medic.... Or Physics..... Oh well... i have one more week before I actually have to say yes or no to certain universities.... Maybe I shall put it off to then?... :P... 

HELL NO!.... Hell no... I can't do that.... and risk making the wrong desicion.... I really wish i didn't have to make this desicion.... It's so hard... it's just so damn hard to choose.... Heh... Guess I brought this upon myself... If I had chosen either Bio or Physics during Form 6... I would not have been in this quandry... Oh wait... cant blame me then... cos i did both subs.... cos i didn't want to make a desicion then.... Haha... IT'S A VICIOUS CYCLE!... 

So.... Medicine?... Or Physics?... Which one?.... 
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I just don't know.....
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MEDICINE
I know that when I was small... I always wanted to become a doctor... I don't know why though... lol.... Maybe its cos that's what everyone wanted to become... Lol.... Or maybe... it was because everyone held doctors in high regard... That I have to agree... Doctors are held in high regard.. They save lives.... Not one but thousands throughout their whole career.... Now thats a lot of lives.... It is an honourable profession.... 

The human body has always intrigued me... How the body systems function in collaboration and in perfect harmony to allow life to go on. And these mechanisms... these functioning of muscles, tendons, nerves, bones with utmost cohesiveness.... The human body is indeed truly amazing. Medicine is one of the hardest courses.... But hey... I have always liked challenges.. XP....  Yup... 

A doctor's life isn't easy... it isn't... First...its the 6 years of med school.... Where...books 4 to 5 times thicker than my STPM books must be 'digested'.. O.O...... heh.... Then... it's housemanship... >.<... I have heard 'horror stories'... 96 hours.... nonstop.... of work... ward duty... assisting in surgery.... and then ward duty..... and so on and so forth... You eat during the time taken to walk in between wards... lol.... lucky im a fast eater eh?... lol... But... that's the challenge isn't it?... The challenge... isn't whether you can stand to see blood... or whether you can cut up a cadaver... Its whether you can stand the life... The life of a doctor.... When you are in the operating theatre... People's lives are in your hand.... You have to make choices...split secind desicions... in the operating theatre... You need to be able to live with yourself if you were to lose a patient... That's life isn't it... No one is perfect... Not even the best doctor in the world can claim that.... (except dr.house!.. XD)

Of course... once you have specialized... and have become well established... wherever you are... either in government service... or on your own.... life gets better... lol... you dont have to spend that much time... you have more time...for yourself.... and for your family.. IF u somehow manage to have time for a relationship during those earlier days... hehe... Although...if you do diagnostic medicine... (like dr.house!)... you don't have to operate or anything... all you need.. is a pen..a whiteboard.... and a team of subordinates to bully :P.. Haha... well...guess that's all about doctors.... 

PHYSICS
Ok... now to the other side... lolx.. Physics... It is the laws that govern our everyday life.. It explains everything that occurs around us... everything that happens can be explained by the laws of physics.... From the time of Galileo to the present, the science of physics has grown in leaps and bounds... to become a subject that I find very very very intriguing... Haha..... 

In physics...specifically... I have two fields that I would like to do... specifically...particle physics... and astronomy..... Why?... Cause its just sooooooooooooooooooooooooooo interesting..!... Haha..
Finding the fundamental particles... The most basic structures that everything in this universe is made up of... Quantum mechanics... Whee!..... Just hearing the name energizes me :P Astronomy... Black holes, dark matter, The events before the Big Bang... O.O.... The future of our universe... The moment of creation?... Haha...  Particle Physics... Quarks.... Hadrons.... Neutrinos.... Photons.... Bosons... Mesons..... Muons... XD

However, if I were to do this... I know I cannot find a job here... in Malaysia... I will have to go to CERN! Haha...that is in Europe... kinda far eh?... Oh well.. If that's the way it is... I will have to go... No choice about that... lol.... I know that I want to discover many things... I want to be able to ermm... ermm... create cold fusion?.. hahah.... or maybe.... discover the most fundamental particle in the universe... or maybe the Higgs Boson!... Hehe... I want to go and see the LHC at CERN!... its cool.... to whizz particles at the speed of light.. to create antimatter?... (This is the Angels and Demons movie talking... blame Dan Brown... about the antimatter part)... Haha.. although... it would be cool.. to actually  do so.. XD... 

Although... as scientists... life isnt that easy as well.. You have to beg... everyday.. for grants... from governments.. to carry out research... It isnt easy to stay up awake all night...looking through telescopes... at the starry sky... although... it would be amazing to actually get a look at the amazing light show that goes on at night... lol.... It also isn't a job that gurantees anything.. I might not discover anything at all...in my lifetime.. haha... Its always luck...when you work at the frontiers of science... 

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So.... haha...those are the fields.. that I want to do..the professions that I dream about... I like both fields.. and... I don't know what to do.. I only have one week... to decide..... Its no use talking to anyone... It only makes the desicion harder... I dont know... I want to make myself happy.... with my choice... myself...and everybody else... This choice.... will eventually determine my FUTURE... what im going to be doing for the REST OF MY LIFE...... the rest of my life... Should I be in a hospital... at an observatory or at CERN...? I just cant make up my mind.... And yea... its HELL.... Why does it have to be so hard?.... 

Haha....

It reminds me of a song in the 90's... lol.... Remember 'Flying Without Wings'?...by Westlife?...
Those songs...that they sang...had meaning... real meaning.. inside of it...
Yea...and in 'Flying Without Wings' there is a verse... that goes....

So impossible
As they may seem
You've got to fight
For every dream
Cause whose to know
Which one you let go
Would have made you complete

So...what do I do?... Do them Both?!?!?!... Haha... Actually... that's not that bad an idea... Although.... the next question comes... Medic first?... Or Physics first?... Haix... Here we go again.... XP

~JoNamasoo~
21/5/2009
2.39 a.m.

Tuesday, April 21, 2009

Don't Ever Judge A Book By Its Cover

It would be an absolute crime not to blog about this video i got on YouTube.

This is one of the latest editions of Britain's Got Talent.

Lol..words can't describe the video.. Just watch it... hahaha....
You can see it at http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9lp0IWv8QZY&feature=related

OK!

How was it eh?.... Everyone was against her.... They judged her by her looks... Lol.... Honestly...the first time I watched it.... I thought it was one of the ones that just were for laughs.. I had NOOOO idea that she could actually sing....
Lol... Just watch the judges reaction eh?.... hahaha... look at SIMON COWELL 4.01 - 4.05 ... Have u ever seen him with such a reaction?!??!?!?... HELL NO!!!!..... I dont tink he has ever EVER given that kind of an expression AT ALL!!!!!

It just goes to show... you should nvr judge a book by its cover.... A person is what they are inside... NOT what they look on the outside.... It was a MOVING video to watch... Hahahaha.....

Neways.... one heck of a video..Hope she wins.. XD

Ciaozzzz

~JoNamasoo~

21/4/2009 - 4.45 p.m.


Saturday, April 18, 2009

You Can Check Out Any Time You Like, But You Can Never Leave

The title is taken from my most favourite song in the whole world...
HOTEL CALIFORNIA - THE EAGLES

It is the last line of the last verse saying that...
'You can check out any time you like... but you can never leave"...
this last line is then followed by one of the most AMAZING guitar solos that there has ever been created... a complete 3 minute nerve wrecking, guitar shredding solo that can be listened to AGAIN and AGAIN and AGAIN... u get the drift eh?... LOL

Anyways... im not gonna blog abt the solo.. haha..if u wanna lsiten to it... get onto youtube..and prepare to get ur brains blown out.. lol...

What i wanna blog abt is the last line of the last verse....
YOU CAN CHECK OUT ANY TIME YOU LIKE... BUT YOU CAN NEVER LEAVE....

I believe that this line pretty much summarizes any experience that we have ever had....
Whatever that we have ever been through, let it be a happy, sad, emo, or whatever type of experience.... will and is always imprinted onto the very fabric of our mind and soul... And... the printing of it... is done so well.... it can never be removed... eh...unless u hv got amnesia or sum kinda memory erasing disease....but lets just confine it to the best case scenario eh?...

You can check out any time you like...
When you are busy... doing sumthing else... either working... or just relaxing..as in..when ur mind is focused on something... you zone out from your experiences... bcos...ur getting new ones... from whatever you are doing... so... you are checking out from you past experiences.... in order to acquire new ones... eh?...

But you can never leave...
However, thats always...ALWAYS... only temporary.... in the end..you can never leave your memories.. because..in the end..you always ALWAYS go back to your memories.. especially when you are all alone.. in the dark... thats all you can ever turn to..... thats all you ever actually own ...... everything else under the sun doesnt actually belong to you at all.. sooner or later..its gonna be taken away or its gonna be given away...... like everything else in life is.... In the end...all you have are the memories..... its always the memories....
And this pool of memories... can be one heck of a calming, soothing hot water spring...(If its happy memories).. or a deep abyss of a cesspool with mruky brown water.... (If its sad and emo memories)... but hey... You can never leave eh?... LIVE WITH IT... embrace this fact.... know that in the end... your memories of everyone and everything.... u have nothing else... but that.. for it is one with you....

So..in conclusion...
NICE LAST LINE BY THE EAGLES... *standing ovation* XD XD
Nice way to summarize all of life's experiences... lol...

Ciaozzz
~JoNamasoo~
18/4/2009 3.25pm

Sunday, March 29, 2009

Earth Hour?!?!

Hey....
About this... "earth hour"....
Whats the big deal?...
One hour of electricity saved.... is like a drop in the ocean...no wait...i have a better simile...
like dropping a quark in the ocean... For those of you who dont knw what quarks are... They are currently the smallest particles known to man.... smaller than a proton... so its VERY VERY SMALL!!!!..... theres no difference whatsoever!!!!

Seriously... one hour of lights out..isnt gonna make a difference.... All i see is that it makes it much easier for thieves, robbers and crooks to enter your house.... imagine...they have ONE WHOLE HOUR!!!....to get in and out mostly undetected....

AND...one more thing...
yea...ok...ppl off their lights and all..fine.. but DO YOU THINK THEY WOULD ACTUALLY STAY AT HOME?????
nope... and that makes it much more easier for the robbers to get in eh?....
And...when they go out...they are using... cars...motorbikes.... and vehicles...that emit POLLUTANTS!!!...... so....with more people on the road..... emitting more pollutants... LOL..u would actually have done more damage to the environment..than you would if u had stayed home and watched tv with all your lights on eh???

OH!....the irony...lolxxx.... XD

I mean cm on lar....
turning ur lights off...?....
nope...that doesnt however repair the damage alrdi done....
And the damage alrdi done...is a domino effect.... which means... IT GETS WORSE every yr....
And no matter how much we reduce pollution now...it will not make a difference!
WHAT WE HAVE TO DO....is CLEAN UP THE MESS WE HAVE MADE....
and hopefully.... HOPEFULLY.... it wont be too late.... hopefully...

You know... scientists estimate the world sea levels to rise 5m in the next century.....
Do you know what that means...?.... A large part of New York would be underwater... Wall Street would crumble... The largest US economic area would be down... And...please tell me.... what happens when Wall Street crumbles???

Lol... LOL.... u knw the economic crisis that we are having nw... well let me put it simply... it would seem like nothing...compared to whats coming.... Wall Street falls.... The entire economy of the WORLD falls.....
Why?.... cos all currencies are based on the US dollar.... so...when it topples... so does the entire world economy... GOT IT?!?!??! And then?.....what happens?...
Knowing humanity..... WAR!!!.... war for food...war for land... there will be no peace... and with all the nukes that countries have..... it will be total obliteration...total chaos...total destruction...

It Will Herald The End Of The World..... As We Know It... and oh yea..one more fact... the last time the earth's temperature... was this hot.. the earth was flooded.... OK?.... And.... if it hasnt happened....that can only mean one thing... IT IS GOING TO HAPPEN.....

And yea.... speaking of cleaning up the mess.....???....
I dont think anyone...any country is actually doing anything do clean up anything!....
You can sign all the Kyoto Protocols u want.... heck... US signed...bt the protocol isnt binding on the US unless ratified.... You can sign all you want... Sign everything.. LEAVE Graffiti on the UN buildings if u need to show something... Bt wats the use of a damn signature..... WATS THE USE of a signature..... unless you do something in accordance to the protocol.... THERE IS NO USE....

Oh yea..... saving the 'best' for last...actually its kinda the worst... XP

With the Antarctic Ice Shelfs on a very very very dangerous situation...... The prediction of 5m in a century... could prove to be very very optimistic... ... O.O..... in face.... it could be so.... in a matter of...years...or decades.....yes... IN OUR LIFETIME....
You know..all this while... we have been just thinking.....
'oh..its nt gonna happen in our lifetime'... and thats why we are complacent....

Well then... i suggest doing something about it eh?... Bt what can we do...
to clean our environment...yes we can clean...bt what about repairing damage that has alrdi been wrought on Mother Earth...... HELLO!!!!.... A BIG HOLE IN THE OZONE LAYER!!!!... RIGHT ABOVE ANTARTICA!!!..... WHICH IS IF U HV FORGOTTEN.... THE PLACE IN A DANGEROUS SITUATION!!!!.....

I shall be frank.... you need money... billions of US dollars.... to even research into repairing the ozone layer..... yea...and assuming we do manage to repair it... lolx... it will just continue to degrade as we continue to emit all those pollutants... Bt thats going too far... We must see if governments are WILLING to spend that much to repair the ozone first........for as we know... they either spend too much money building weapons of mass destruction.... XD...or filling their own pockets???...XP....

So.... In the end.... one hour of lights off?.... XP....good luck with changing the future with that.. LOL!!!!.... I mean...if it the end of the world is coming soon... at least enjoy yourself... by turning on your lights and fan and AIR CON!!!!.... and reading this post!!! XD

Umm... and one more thing.. it's all gonna end the EARTH is gonna perish people.... either.... a BIG RIP... a BIG CRUNCH... bt thats going to far...when the sun dies...we all die too... XD... and can we trust man with instellar travel?... we'll propbably find another poor little rock out there to live on....and pollute it as well eh?... XD

I shall now wait for the onslaught and barrage of comments claiming i am a pessimist... bla bla..traitor to the human race... bla bla... murderer of nature.... XD

I say : BRING IT ON!... I havent had a good debate in a while either... MAKE MY DAY!!! XD... and yea.... call me all you want.. IN THE END... you have to face the facts.... so FACE IT!!! FACE IT!!!!

Man...that felt good... XD XD

Ciaozz...
~JoNamasoo~
29/3/2009 - 8.15p.m.

Wednesday, March 11, 2009

So Close, and yet So Far

Your breathing gets laboured
You stare at your watch
And as your vision gets blurred
You feel there's a catch

For the wait is murder
You feel the numbing pain
It's worse cos you're the sufferer
And you wait to see if you gain

With held breaths
And laboured steps
You trudge slowly
And yet you want it over quickly

Your heart is on overdrive
As it beats wildly
You wonder if you can survive
This feeling, is it for eternity?

Questions are asked
You yearn for an answer
Hoping it will be the one you want
And the adrenaline rushes faster

The painful wait is torturous
Seconds are like years
And hope keeps you adventurous
You know you have your chances

No matter how slim the chance
You take it with hope
As you wait, your heart will dance
You wonder if it can cope

The emotional stress intensifies
Answers have finally arrived
Will the answers justify
The hope that has until now survived ?

The answers slip through the brain
Yet the mind has not received it
It anxiously waits withstanding the pain
Of waiting that tears it bit by bit

The message is delivered finally
It seems like a total eternity
The placid face breaks into a SMILEY =)
It is just as you hoped it would be

Euphoria rushes throughout your being
Waves of relief crash over the sands of despair
And you are finally seeing
The answer about that which you oh so care

The answer is a joyous one
And you cant help but grin
Your face radiant as the sun
You yell, "It's in the bag!.. It's in!!"

That is only one part
Of a story yet to be told
What about the story that can crush a heart?
Read on, don't fear, be bold

The message is sent across
The mind receives it
Your heart is at a loss
You failed to achieve it

The hope that once was
Is now no more
Tucked away in a remote cabinet labeled "IT WAS"
And the waves of hope crash no more on the shore

But what can you do
You ask "Is it too late?"
Simply put, it never is too late, NO!
For only you can change your own fate

Believe, and persevere
Fan the flames of hope
Ensure that you heart is always sincere
And everything will be in your scope

To never give up
To never give in
Hope one day to hold the cup
To achieve victory, to finally win!

Hopes and dreams never die
If you need to, wish on a falling star
Put your heart and soul into it, you will touch the sky
And you never have to say, "So Close, and yet So Far"

JoNamasoo
11/3/2009
1.37 am

Sunday, March 8, 2009

Rempit ?!?!

The clock ticks nearer
The seconds draw closer
Yet the destination seems further
And so you 'tekan minyak' harder

The engine's running
And there's no point in slowing
You take the corner
That sharp turning

The car skids hard
And you jam the brakes
One thought runs through
Oh crap.... Its over... Im dead!!!

Your head hits the road hard
The glass all around you in shards
Blood oozes onto your face
You lie there in a daze

As the numbing pain sets in
You fight hard not to give in
To the sweet voice thats tell you to sleep
For your sleep causes others to weep

Your entire life flashes through your eyes
And you know that this will be your demise
You regret for all the things you've done
And pray that you'll see another rising sun

Tears flow down your face
As you remember all those u love
You cough hard as the pain numbs your chest
You wonder "Is this the eternal rest?"

A siren blows in the distance
But you are slipping away
Towards the other side
Struggling to return for another ride

And then you see a face
One that is forever etched in your memory
A calming face in the turbulent darkness
A face never to be forgotten even in the void of neverendingness

You hope for another chance
To maybe catch a glimpse
Of that face again
When you are suffering with all that pain

You fade in and out of the void
Your consciousness empty
Your heart however is content
To go seeing that face during the last instant

And then you pass out
A small smile etched on the pale face
The medics arrive and they look grim
But they keep trying on a whim

You are in a white tunnel
That seems never to end
You hover above your body
The shell that has housed you selflessly

And then, your gut feels funny
It's like a vacuum in your tummy
You are pulled back into your body
"Oh God! He's Alive!" said somebody

Your eyes open and search
For a familiar face
And then you see it
And with a smile your face is lit

You feel your hands clasped
Tightly, yet you feel the care
A feeling that you've never felt before
The feeling of being secure

Your eyes meet and you know
You would be a fool
To lose something like that
Cause once its lost... Its not coming back

And as you look outside
The dark stormclouds part
And the sun shines brightly away
You have another chance, another day

To make things right
And to make the right choices
Not to live in regret
Nor to die in regret

~JoNamasoo~
8.3.2009
12.55 am

Wednesday, February 11, 2009

The Overratedness of Certain Overrated Things Is Certainly Overratedly Overrated

Yea... i know... its a loooong title.... XD.... and its a loooong time since i posted anything too... hahaha

OK first things first.... definition of overrated...

Overrated is whereby something is given more credit than it deserves... or..as in..well... it is given more prominence then it should get.... it is displayed in such a light whereby it doesnt deserve such prominence at all...XD

Next, the reason why things are overrated.... People tend to overrate things bcos...they mean something to them.... Well.... its nt tat bad a thing...bt hey... too much of anything....well...lolx...isnt of much help anyway... lolx... When things mean a lot to a person, they tend to overemphasize on it... thus overrating it in the process....

Also, things can get even more overrated when a group of ppl have the same thing in common tat means a lot to them... so wat happens is...they get together... and well....after "serious discussion...lolx".... they decide to celebrate this thing tat they all revere so much.....

Next....overratedness spreads vry quickly nowadays due to the internet and the easy susceptibility of its users... lolx.. So.... well..... im nt saying tat overrating stuff is wrong or anything....bt hey... if sumthing reali means tat much to u...then overrate it as much as u please..

XD

Ciaozz

~JoNamasoo~ 17/2/2009 12.51 a.m.

Wednesday, January 21, 2009

My Other Blog

Hey guyz...
Just wanted to let you all know....
*especially for u guitarists out there....XD*

Well.... you see..... Mr. Benjamin Jude and I have started a blog specifically for guitar chords.
It is called Nonsense Chords. Lolx.... Why the name?... Haha.... Both of us are NONSENSE FELLOWS.... hahahahaa XD XD XD

So anyways.... If u wan to access this blog... the link is as follows:
http://nonsensechords.blogspot.com/

Lolx... it's well.... still new.... v only have two songs in there... lolx...
Haha...Bt I hope it helps k?.... lolx...


Ciaozz.
Guitarists Rock!... XD

~JoNamasoo~ 21/1/2009 11.19 a.m.

Monday, January 19, 2009

Mind Your Language!

Yea....this blog is abt ppl u kno...with all the foul language and all the %@#$&@%#^$@%@%$ ... lolx.. its kinda sad.... haha...

LOL!!!!........ GOTCHA!!!!!!!... *Whee... i sound like JJ and Rudy...oops... i mean JJ and Ean*

As if i got nothing better to blog abt... hahahaha... i mean....one blog is going to change everyone??? HAHAHAHA..... * i wish it cld tho....*...maybe change sumthings.....* hahahaxx

I wonder if u guys know abt a comedy series called "Mind You Language"... lolx... when i was a small boy....guess i was abt 4 yrs old la... lolx.....*man i sound old.... hahahaha*.... and that was abt 14 yrs ago...so im nt tat old k... lolx!!!..... this series was on... and it was a hit!!!!...

Haha..i can still rmbr laughing my head off... Lolx....especially... "A thousand apologies" lolx... poor Mr.Brown.. hahaha....XD XD XD

So....wat i did today was to get online and go to youtube.. and i found a LOT of clips.... of Mind Your Language... and had a gud gud gud laugh... man.... cun weyh...*crap...i sound like pravin* ... hahaha.....

So wat i recommend if u wanna hv a gud laugh... go watch!!!!... Its reali nice!! XD XD

Ciaozz!..
Hope u have a good laugh watching
Laughter is supposedly the best medicine..
A thousand apologies if u dun like the show.. HAHAHAHAHA

~JoNamasoo~ 19/1/2009 11.01p.m.

Saturday, January 17, 2009

Wonderwall - Oasis

I've just been listening to this song... lately...this is the current track thats stuck in my head.. Its kinda of an old song...well...its not new la... as in.... not this yr for sure...XD.....

The music :
Strumming pattern is nice... the fast beat... yea...gives some life to the song!
Drum beat is kinda like march beat...with a bit of impro....good good!!!.....
Lol..i can lose myself in the rhythm...
The vocals..well...is ok la...nice too..... hmmm...but i dunno la..its a bit out... but...it well..fits the song..... i tink... lolx... u can feel the hope and yet...somehow disappointment in the voice... so it fits quite well... quite well indeed.... hahaha XD

The lyrics :
The words they use in the song...are really nice... well..lolx..the words mean a lot la... a real lot...
Really, certain verses yes...they definitely are fitting...and well..they are really to the point... Amazing lyrics....
Haha.... u can just immerse yourself deep into the meaning of the song....well.....if ur in the same predicament that the song describes...

My favourite parts are :
1. I don't believe that anybody feels
The way I do about you now
2. There are many things that I would
Like to say to you
But I don't know how
The best part abt these verses are that they are straight to the point...lolx... most other songs...try to describe these feelings in different methods... but not here.... the song tells directly how its supposed to be... lolx....

Well, thats abt it..

Enjoy the song yea.. Find it on youtube

Ciaozz.

~JoNamasoo~ 18/1/2009 - 12.05 am

Lepaking Part 3

Walau...this will be by far the best lepaking post in the lepaking series...HAHAHA....XD

So...it was me and 4 other manusia.... lolx.. Firstly... manusia 1* and 2* came to my hse...i tink it was last tuesday..... late... as usual....hahaha..wat to do...bz marrrr.....then ok..took car...all d way to kk road....picked up manusia 3*.... then went all d way to parade.... yes...all the way to parade!!!........ And then manusia 4* met us there

AND THEN!!! - anticlimax... one mangkuk punya manusia 2* tells us he has to go back quickly...cos he must pick his sister....and we were like.... DUDE!!!!!.... NOW ONI U TELL US!??!?!?.....crappppppp............ Then...took the car...all the way back to AK Nasi Kandar... i tink..v can start account there la..almost evryday going there oni...... lolx.... then itu semua x apa lar..

Then.... took the car ALL THE WAY TO JUSCO....aiks...lucky petrol price dah kurang lar....nor RM 2.70 animore.... then....went there...played snooker....and then manusia 3 had to go sumwhere and then...manusia 1 and 2 left to pick up manusia 2's sister.... haix... so left me and manuisia 4...v were playing lar....... i hadnt played snooker for a long time...bt lolx...SURPRISINGLY.....i din play tat bad!..... hahaha.... After that.... manusia 3 came back...from his little trip and v soon went for bowling...

Haha...lucky my hand wasnt painful animore...cos...abt last week of december....lol.... after i went bowling..i couldnt straighten my hand...lolx... wat to do...mmg i nak cari pasal..XD Haha.....well..manusia 3 who claims not to have played bowling sicne form 3....was doing quite well... lolx.....manusia 4 only played one round....me and manusia 3 played on another game...lolx...finally..the last frame of the second game...i finally got a strike... XD....lolx.... the jusco lanes are quite different frm the parade lanes tho.....

Then....makan!....we went to McD.... haha....wat to do... fastfood calls out to us...XD XD...... Lolx..then after that v went to ILTI....to get sum info abt IELTS...lolx... just asking around... hahaha... Lol..these manusia 3 and 4...mmg tak tau tutup mulut dlm kereta la...ish.... sakai betul....XD hahahaha

Then..back to my hse.....walau..raining like hell weh.... so hard and so fast...lucky no lightning..hahaha....so can use computer...LOL!!! v played battlefied 2...wah...cun weh...reali nice...XD XD XD..... then manusia 4 left at 6.30 and both manusia 3 and I talked for a long time la..abt lot of things... lolx...havent had such a good conversation for a loooong time.. wat to do... haha... lif'e's like that eh?... HAHAHAHAHA... Then manusia 3 left at abt 7.30...lolx...

Well then, till the next lepaking session eh?...

Ciaozz
~JoNamasoo~ 17/1/2009 - 11.21am

Tuesday, January 13, 2009

Edu Fair.... KL!....

So yes...i actually went to KL...for the edu fair...yaya...the one organized by The Star.... Heh.... So... Manusia 1* and Manusia 2* came to my hse at 7.30 am..on Saturday!...Then.... at 8.00 am v left with my parents to KL....

Abt 2 hrs lar...to reach....but luckily i brought CDs ....lolx..so did Manusia 2.... haha..ALL ORI PUNYA CD....Eagles..... Deep Purple.... Simple Plan....and All American Rejects...haha...nice oso lar...the songs...especially...cos its ori...lolx... So...just listening to songs lar...in the car...lol....and wait....

OH YEA !!!!....on the way.... V SAW A LAMBORGHINI!!!!........ A YELLOW ONE!!!!...EXACTLY LIKE THE ONE ON THIS BLOG!!!!!!!!!!......... Wat a coincidence eh?..lolx..i bet he was going at abt 180 km/h...lol.... but...if u can afford the car...u sure can afford the speeding tickets eh?...LOL!

Haha...so reached KLCC.....at abt..well....10.30 lar...then....went straight to the place....Wah....was so packed wei...but not that packed like sardines liao...if like tat kenot walk oso...haha...bt....there were many many booths lar.... But Singapore universities din come...i wonder why... lolx...maybe they got better things to do?.....lolx...most probably anyway...hahaha!

Then, at abt 12.00 there was the Medicine and Dentistry talk....wah...so cun....the doctors and dentists tat spoke...were vry...err....how to say...... INTERESTING!!!!..... haha...and vry funny...as well.... haha... laughed my head off...heeheehee.....

Then after that...v went for lunch...haix...the food ar....no taste wei!...i mean like...really FLAT wei!....no taste at all!!!... eat for sake of avoiding gastric oni lar....wat to do....paid edi wat...summore in KLCC....so u can imagine the price eh....LOL!!!.....paid thru our noses...for crap..

Then was the HotJobs talk...it was ok....it started and ended with a blast....but not the same can be sed for the central topic...hahaha..... u had to be there to understand tho....LOL!!!!

Then it was the engineering talk...waliao..vry interesting u kno....if there were know engineers...well... we wont be living the way we are...lolx.. And yea.... the speakers were really good...

After that, it was dinner la...we had A&W....too bad ipoh dun have...crap betul and ipoh oso dun hv domino's pizza...haix...wat to do....ISH!!!...i mean cm on lar...ipoh ppl sumtimes get fed up of just KFC, McD and Pizza Hut u kno.... hahaha.....

Left Kl at abt errrrrrr...8.00 pm...so...reached home abt 10.30...was raining heavily mostly thru the journey...haha..listened to the same songs on the way back...haha...HOTEL CALIFORNIA!!!! XD XD XD

So...then manusia 1 went back..followed by Manusia 2....

And that's all folks!

Lolx...

Ciaozz..
~JoNamasoo~

Monday, January 5, 2009

First day of school.....?.....NOT!!!!

So..today was the first day of school.... yes yes....it was the first day of school...
BUT NOT FOR MEEEE!!!!!!!!... hahahahaha XD !!!!!
But i still went to school.... haha...confused?.....GOOD!....

So i went...LATE!....haha....at 9.30...XD....adalah seorg kawan who was sposed to come...bt dia zzzzzzz.... so late...lolx...

So wat did i do on the first day of school?...I DIDNT ENTER CLASS!!!! Hahahaha XD

Haha...went to see all my tchers....well...almost all ler....for the ones that i din...c tmr lor... lolx.. and toked and toked wif ms.foo..... at the same time..she was criticizing one monkey....that supposedly had to see her for sumthin....haha...i kno...bt im nt telling who...XD..... kenot la....privacy mar....hahaha....

Then..... also went to the classes kacau juniors XD....they all so free....no one in class....tok tok tok...for i tink almost 1 hr....haha...then when tcher cm..they all run into class.....wakakaka......
Me..?....i escape la.....lolx...used to it..... lolx...havent lost my skills...haha....

Then...went canteen...ppl makan....then going to rain....ish... got blamed for the rain...ISH!!!...
Y la...ppl drive n cm to sch...will rain meh?!?!??!.... XD

N one more thing.... 2day is the 5th of jan... so.....

HAPPY BIRTHDAY KAVITHA!!!!!


Ciaozz guys.... c u in sch tmr...XD
~JoNamasoo~ 5/1/2009 - 9.03pm

Saturday, January 3, 2009

Songs......

I bet you all know how it feels to have songs stuck in ur head.....lolx.. and it just keeps repeating and repeating and repeating..... and you just want it out of your head.... but the more u tink of getting it out....the more it gets in...lolx... Of course thats only one small part of songs in out life.... haha...a vry irritating part at that...lolx..

But humans are attracted to music.... This is evident bcos when u hear a nice tune....or some new music....u tend to move to it...whether u like it or not..lolx.... or...whether u realise it or not.....haha... and we like certain types of music.... each of us have a certain liking...some like classical...some like reggae...some like techno...some like rap...u c...there is a music genre for evryone!

People create and write songs.... to express themselves...in the same way...artists paint..... speakers speak.... and authors write..... and the words they create....and the music that accompanies it...tells a story....it conveys feelings and emotions... that when combined with music...it can mean...so much!

And its that combination that makes songs really good....because when u find a song that exactly pictures whats going thru ur mind....its like heaven...........cos u just keep listening again and again and again to it....and u feel the emotions 10 or 20 times more than you could if u were just thinking about it... Thats what songs do....they amplify ur feelings....that why sometimes when ppl listen to songs..... they get really emotional

CAUSE THE SONGS.....THEY MAKE THE FEELINGS AND EMOTIONS STRONG AND IT OVERWHELMS YOU.....UNTIL YOU ARE ADDICTED TO THE MUSIC...

The song twists around ur ears.... crooning.... enchanting.... making you unable to stop listening... and then you realise that u are actually feeling it all....baring your soul to the music...and the songs.....the words.....it washes over you...and it watches over you.... to let you..... feel the music.... and be one with it.... and.....u dont feel anything anymore...u just follow the song....u follow the music... u get high....over music!

This song post...was....eh...well....random......vry random...first post of 2009...lolx..let it be abt something i like...songs!...lol...listening.... playing guitar....lolx....when i get a guitar in my hands...well...lol.... creating music is much more fun that listening...XD......

Ciaozzz...
~JoNamasoo~ 3/1/2009 1.40 am

Tuesday, December 30, 2008

2009 Approaches... Its Time To Look Back At 2008 And Hope For 2009

*This post was supposed to come out b4 2008 finished.... bt wat to do... LIGHTNING STRUCK MY MODEM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!*

Well......i guess it is fitting to blog abt the year....since its ended.... To put down all that the year had to offer..... To put down everything...*well maybe nt everything la....haha.....but u get the picture*.....lolx!....... 2008.....as i have put in one of my posts called "The Boredom".....was BITTERSWEET..... Here....i will touch on the details that i can spare.....the details....that......i can tell..... and maybe some that i cant ......as well.....=P....we shall c as tthis post evolves.... bcos i write what i feel and of course....wat u rmbr la....LOL.....

I do not expect you to comprehend what im about to blog..... for.....i do not reveal....anything so easily..... lol..... whats mine to kno.....is mine....and maybe....just ever so maybe....yours to kno as well.....

2008 started like every year starts.....with school.... lol.....i kno many of my comrades.... dont like school.....lol....i guess im just one of the exceptions....cos i love to go to sch.... XD...... yea.....i really do..... LOL....but school and me...thats another post.... haha...not here.....maybe i will touch a bit la.... 2008 was the last schooling year for me...ever....finished my upper 6..... in ACS....

I know i left with a heavy heart.... too heavy..... i have too many memories there..... too many memories...not all sweet...and not all bitter.... but all cherished memories.... for realise....that....i cant go back.... to school....as a student..... I miss my schooling life.... In short....my time in ACS....especially my Form 6 was the best one and a half years of my life.... although.... i had a hell of a lot of things to do.... lolx.....and a lot of things to settle....hahaha.... all the things i did....i know i cant do again.... i miss my frens.....my juniors.... lol.... i dunno y.....bt i get along soooooo well with my juniors..... haha..... miss my teachers as well....lol..they weren't teachers to be exact......they were like my frens..... people i could trust.... haha... lol....cant wait.....will be going back to school to see them....SOON!!!!.... hahaxx...

Have you ever felt like you belonged somewhere.... belonged to something....and you know deep down...... that no matter where you go.... you will indefinitely be drawn back.... thats how i am with my school.... I belonged somewhere when i was there.... lol..... In school i belonged..... It was a solace....a sanctuary.... and yet at times.... it also could be the hottest fiery pit of hell... but still i didnt mind....for i belonged.....

4/4/08..... lol....i still rmbr this date....haha.... it was CANTEEN DAY!!!!! ..... and ACS won the Rotary Debate for the first time in..... oh i dunno....how long it has been.... 4.4.08 rocked to the MAX!!!!!!

Hmmm...... 2008.... 2008.... well..... it was one of those years....that you want to remember and yet forget.... lolx.....

Things i wanna rmbr
1. School
2. Friends...
3. Certain people.... (close friends) lolx!
4. Teachers....
5. Prefects Board
6. Canteen Day(just Canteen Day 4.4.08....and the preparations...NOT the aftermath!!!)
7. LTC (not the preparations..!!!!..... hahaha.....)
8. AGM(kinda....lolx....lets put it dis way....certain events)...
9. Debating!!.... n Public Speaking!!!

Things i want to forget.....
1.... errr....forget ady lor..... hahahaha!!!!

2008....was a year...even though it was bittersweet....was a year that taught me a lot.... i just hope that i learnt from it.... i hope i've learnt.... lol..... experiencing everything..... truly....experience is the greatest teacher.... I just hope i've learnt....not to make the same mistakes.... i dont wanna make those mistakes again in 2009..... a fool makes mistakes....an idiot repeats them.... i dont want to be an idiot in 2009..... Yes.... even though....2008 was hard on me.... at certain points..... i do not regret my past.... i am grateful to experince it all...... for i hope that i have learnt.... from it all....

Still.... i wonder if i have learnt....
I really do not know....
A shadow clouds my judgement.... maybe its the memories...?... haha.....

2009.... all i hope for is that it will be a much better year than 2008.... i dont know if i can take another 2008... lol.... but if i have to.... i will..... i am not afraid.... i will face it..... if i have to....
In 2009.... i hope that.... i can achieve all that i want to.... and yet still stay the same person...lol...
Got lot of things...hopes n dreams for 2009....lolx....i can only do so much....the rest....is not in my hands... =)

Anyways.... Happy 2009 ppl....!!!!.....

I quote frm one of the msges i received on New Years Day....
"Life Is Beautiful If You Know How To Live It"

~JoNamasoo~ 2/1/2009 5.35 pm